4/4/2013 A second off of work.

I am taking sometime at the beginning of today's work day to coalesce some of my thoughts. Already today has been delightful in the fact  that I was able to knock a presentation regarding a homeless shelter project out of the park. In front of a whole bunch of Pastors I was able to wow with my knowledge and personal stories regarding my interactions with the local homeless community. I know that I was able to light a fire in many hearts and minds regarding McDonough County Homelessness. As we move forward I need to kick my ass in to high gear to deliver on the promises that I have made to both myself and others. I am going to change, I am going to be the best that I can be, and I am going to make my life one that is worth living. I just want the world to know that even though I have been a failure much to this point that I am trying to change. I am trying to adapt to a changing world that is filled with burnt bridges and twisted mistake. I hope that I can overcome my past mistakes to be the person that I know I am.

Also, I don't want to die in North Korea.

4/3/2013

Yesterday was the first Will day that I have taken in a long time. I took a total of two very glorious naps and I even managed to spend some time with my brother and my wife. As a perfectly lazy day I felt more inclined this morning to push myself through a list of tasks that I need and want to complete by the end of the day. Some are more important than others, while some are more complex than others. Moving forward for me has always been a problem. Many times I hyper-focus on things that bring me pleasure rather than setting priorities and getting through the hardest of the hard tasks. I know in my heart that it is time to change the way I am and that making those changes will help me to better understand myself. I just don't know where this life is taking me and sometimes I don't really care to know. However, in the long run I think that I am going to be just fine.